Self Pride
07:08
Hey all - I hope you're all well! How's your summer going? Mine has truly began now I have my last results from uni and am free to do whatever. "Whatever" is currently consisting of hours upon hours of playing sims 4, it's an awful addiction but better than drugs aye? I really want to read more books though but I literally have no where to put them I'm actually heart broken, I miss reading fiction novels - My studies have been very matter of fact and I'm ready to be lost in some make believe, I guess for now Sims is doing that job for me.
I really can't put my finger on why I forgot to share my results when people were so very eager to hear them. It's just a thing I did.
I figured that whenever I feel proud of myself that it's my mom's pride I'm feeling, and I like that. I love more how my dad has told me he's proud of me, without me asking to as I've had to do before... It's reassurance from my best friend that I'm doing well, even though I'm not sure if I really am or not. Him, plus Steve and Deb giving me high praise (as well as the canon thing) makes me feel like I'm doing a good job as a photographer so far, so I should be proud of myself right?
Perhaps I've detached myself from the last project as it became really quite difficult to complete and left me both physically and emotionally drained so I can't feel too proud of something that although I'm pleased with, makes me feel so crappy. Nevertheless I did feel very proud to show my books to Steve and Deb, and dad wants to show it off too.
I'm not sure I can make it to the wisdomous part of the blog post where I give you some advice... Perhaps I too shall work on letting myself feel proud of what I do and get back to you. I guess it's all part of confidence in yourself and your abilities, I don't even have the confidence to talk to people let alone show them things I make.
If you do have some advice on this for myself and other readers then do comment it below :)
Cheerio loved ones - Beky x
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