Yep. Definitely didn't forget I even owned a blog... Whoops. Forgive me friends. And hello! My oh my are things getting crazy. Not only am I trying to maintain a social life and failing to remember to text people with a substantial conversation. But I'm swamped with homework that never seems to allow enough time for actually revising and remembering all the work for the real exams. Ugh teenage life is hard.

After having two weeks off for Easter I'm way out of routine and I can't keep on top of anything and everything's all rushed back at once. Quite frankly I just want to sleep for 3000 years and if I close my eyes for long enough right now that may happen. I miss my bed. And I miss talking to my best friend Gemma. But there's just not enough hours in the day to have some time off. And procrastination doesn't help yet still just... happens.

I cannot wait for summer to come and to leave education. Not only to get some refreshing sleep that leaves me actually feeling awake but to chill, stress free. Chatting to my friends and having some quality camera time. At the same time I'm so scared for the next step and joining "the big real world" as adults call it. I could probably complain about school for hours but right now I'm just so tired from it. It's a lot of hard work and brain effort.

I always have to straighten things out in my head before I can start. I have to mentally tidy up my brain then physically tidy up the work space. Lay it out in my head again then set to work. I'm a visual learner so revision contains a lot of highlighters, coloured pens and imagining the layout of my workbook when thinking back to poems etc. Perhaps next week I shall blog some tips on revising - and most of all remember I own a blog and Saturday is upload day hahaa!

There are so many important things to maintain in life. It's almost like a triangle of "good sleep", "good grades" and "good social life" and you can only pick two. Right now I don't seem to be able to hold up one, but I'm sure we all get like that. And as much as I live for making my family proud with academic achievements and I find such deep comfort in my bed, all I want right now is to be with my Gemma. I'm working on all three agonisingly slowly but hey better late than never I suppose.

What I will leave you with is this. Always keep your mind clean and put your mental wellbeing first. Don't risk having a breakdown with a pile up of stress trying to keep everything intact when it's all a mess in your head. Straighten it out there before you attempt anything, as much as I live by that I still try and leave myself too tired to function like right now. Oh dear Beky...

Take care of yourselves, love to you all and sweet dreams tonight.

As an introvert it can be a little lonely and isolating when you're sat within a group of people. Wanting a bit of alone time or wishing nobody directly asked you a question you hadn't really considered an answer to. Or when you're in just the right mood and with the right people that you feel comfortable with it can still be very draining to have to socialise for a whole day. Even just 6 or so hours at school I have to take about an hour when I get home to just sit to myself before I move on to doing something with myself like washing up or pulling my homework out of my bag.

I've recently had a busy weekend full of socialising. I had a sleepover at one friends house and went from there to another friends house to sleepover there. I had 5 minutes to go home and drop off my bags before going to see my cousins at my grandparents house before they left for their home again. Another 5 minutes to empty my bag and fill it with my purse and other little essentials to go and see a movie (paper towns, it was amazing).

After that weekend I was in some serious need of home and alone time to recharge and recover from the non stop socialising. Don't get me wrong, I love my little cousins and my friends are bundles of fun but as an introvert, that was an absolutely overwhelming jam packed weekend.

Two of my best friends - who have been best friends with one another for 13 years? - have a few opposites amongst their similarities. One is tall, the other is short. One is blonde, the other is brunette. One is introverted, the other is extroverted. This close contrast I see nearly every day in texts or at school while we're not on a break. It's interesting to see two points of view, for example, we had plans to go out one day to the park during half term and while one friend was excited to meet up and go out, the other said she was happy to have a week away from school to do nothing, sit in and watch films and what have you. I laughed because we had plans that very day and the day after but it was interesting to see how different people felt about having plans.

Nevertheless, I feel I have now recovered from my oh so social weekend, feeling more chipper and more likely to accept another invitation out hahaa!

I'd like you to make note of todays picture and look after your introverted and extroverted friends accordingly, we are all different after all and humans need a little bit of lovin'. If you can't quite decide whether you are more introverted or extroverted I've taken the liberty of linking a quiz for you [here] and [here]. I took the tests myself and it seemed pretty accurate.

Let me know whether you're introverted or extroverted or if you have any I vs E stories. :)